Friday, January 21, 2011

Willing to Take Big Measures

I shared with you we were willing to do anything to simplify our lives.

Did that include leaving our family and friends to move to another state where we didn't know anyone?

I have lived in the same place, never feeling the need to venture off to new exciting places. The place where I live is exciting. Target and T.J. Max are right across the street, for heaven's sake. What could be more exciting than that?


*****

The Adventure Begins...

The plane lifted above the ground, as we exited LAX. There was an aching in my heart.   What are we doing?  Are we really flying to another state to see if that is where we want to live for the next 20 years of our lives?  We want to raise our 3 kids in a better place.

Better.

What is better?  What is the best?  It is what we want for our children, of course.  But how do you know what is best?

I looked down at my hands, closed into fists on my lap.  Why am I so nervous?  I wasn't moving yet. Couldn’t this just be a romantic getaway with my husband?  Isn’t it an exciting adventure that my husband and I get to do together?   We are scouts, hand in hand, searching for a place to dig our roots into.  It sounded like an adventure, a rather fun one.  Why then was my heart palpitating?  I did just finish off a whole bar of chocolate.  I believe it was unevenly pounding before I completed the only thing that was comforting me at this time- chocolate.  But it did the opposite of comfort.  I felt like I was about to have a heart attack from stress and caffeine.

Heart palpitations were not a stranger to me.

No comments:

Post a Comment